Tuesday, October 14, 2008

A Silly Survey

Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work? Of course... mmmm tasty

What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you've dated? 12 years

Ever been in a car wreck? 3, I think...

Were you popular in high school? no popular is a tree

Have you ever been on a blind date? no all my dates could see

Are looks important? Not as far as being friends with someone, but with regards to dating yes... at least initially.

Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more? yes

Does the number of people a person's slept with affect your view of them? I guess if I went around asking people that question. It would be interesting if we lived in a world where it was written on peoples forehead... how would we act differently? Hmmmm...

Have you ever made a mistake? Yes... some bigger than others...

Are you a good tipper? I try... even when I get bad service I tip a descent amount.

What's the most you have spent for a haircut? $24 including tip...

Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? Yes. My fourth grade teacher... ok I was young and didn't know any better.

Have you ever peed in public? That depends on how you define public... oh there was the time in Korea where I went off the back of a dump truck in the middle of the night in some nameless town... couldn't get the drivers attention. Kind of funny...

Would you tell your parents if you were gay? I'm glad I'll never have to make that 'ChoicE'...

Beatles or Stones? Hmmm... neither? Ok the Beatles

Beer, wine or hard liquor? Yes please... Probably L, W then B..., but I'm most happy with WateR

Do you have any phobias? Not really any more... just get scared for my kids sometimes... I used to be afraid of the dark.

What are your plans for the future? To explore true love as this is the first time I've ever experienced it and I never want it to diminish.

If you were an animal what would you be? That's a tough one. My favorite animal is the cheetah, but I don't think I'd want to be one. Probably something that flies, like a hawk.

Would you rather be blind or deaf? deaf, I love God's beauty too much not to 'see' it...

Do you have any special talents? No. Not really...

What do you do as soon as you walk in the house? Stumble over shoes.... need to make a shelf :-)

Do you like horror or comedy? comedy, I have never gotten the horror for horror's sake thing. Real life is scary enough

Are you missing anyone? yes, all my peeps, and Ms J of course

Where do you want to live when you are old? A small Mexican village in Montana just far enough away in the woods to roam naked and free... maybe I would maybe I wouldn't, but the freedom to do so would be awesome indeed.

Who is the person you can count on the most? Ms J

If you could date any celebrity past or present, who would it be? Ms J, although she's probably offended I put her in that group

What is your favorite sport to watch? Ms J doing karate

Are you named after anyone? yes, both my grandfathers

What is your favorite alcoholic drink? Vodka Martini

Non-alcoholic drink? Water, but I'm not a snob ;-)

Have you ever been in love? Only now am I finding the true meaning of love...

Do you sing in the shower? On occasion, but I try not to dance...

Have you ever been arrested? No.

What is your favorite holiday? I like Thanksgiving... more about family and less hustle and bustle... mmmm food.

Would you ever get plastic surgery? Not for vanity, but possibly for medical reasons...

Have you ever caught a fish? Yes... would love to catch some more

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

A Light in the Dark

Back in May Ms J and I decided to pursue a relationship even though my divorce was not complete. Part of my thinking was that we will show the children what a relationship should look like. I think deep down, at least on my part, I was afraid of losing the amazing wonderful relationship I had found and did not want to let go of… not having faith and trusting God that that relationship would be there on the other side. Now that the divorce proceedings have dragged on and Ms J and my relationship has progressed I can’t help but wonder what the impact is on the kids and their perception of what a right relationship is.

Almost instantaneously we were mad for each other or should I say made for each other. Lots of things in common: Intelligence, Christianity, Love for reading, Loathing for television, Love of the outdoors and God’s creation, Politics, Uniqueness, Karate, Games, Dreaming, Travel, Staying home, Thunderstorms, and on and on, but most importantly wanting to be the best parents possible. Two very passionate people coming together and finding each other after very disappointing and heartbreaking relationships. Wanting something for our kids… the fulfillment of what a right relationship… what God intended from Adam on… should look like. To be a light in a world filled with selfish, follow happiness wherever it leads, people. Where one relationship is just a stepping stone to the next, where children are thrown to the sidelines in the pursuit of what’s good for ME! Our biggest desire being to offer this Light to our kids.

This past weekend I found out that my daughter was buying into this follow happiness at any cost lifestyle, thus shattering my perception that I would be the light for them to the way things should be. I can’t put into words how truly devastating this is. So with everything in life that I come across and am not quite sure how to handle… I reflect study and pray. Seeking answers as to why so as to fix or prevent future occurrences.

So as I sit and wonder, contemplating what my part in this was (is), I can’t help but look at my relationship with Ms J and the affect it might have in this situation. Is my relationship with Ms J being equated in the children’s minds as equal to my Xs illicit adulterous relationships? Has my relationship with Ms J progressed to a point where physical affection has added to the confusion my children are faced with? Have I in some way put my kids on a back burner while strengthening my relationship with Ms J? Is my relationship with Ms J’s Daughter somehow affecting their perception of my relationship with them? So many things to think about, so many things to contemplate.

I’ve been wrestling with this for a few days now and am not fully convinced of anything other than the fact that God brought us together. He brought us together to show a right relationship. Satan does not want to allow this to happen and will do whatever he can to destroy it. A right relationship with a Man, a Woman and God is the perfect picture of God, Christ and the Church. It is good to be awake and be cognizant of the questions that have come to mind. Sometimes you go through life and don’t ask hard questions just because in the short term it’s easier that way.

I want to have a right relationship with Ms J and above that with Christ. So in that vain I will stay the course as best I can. Exemplifying what I know to be God’s will praying that my children will see the light and that Light would expose the lies and deceit that they have been led astray with. I pray with all my heart that we can impart to them the skills and desire to pursue Godly relationships and to show them the truly abundant treasure you find in doing so. I pray that with our children we will start a revival of Godly marriages and families. I pray for strength and Wisdom to follow the path that God has laid before us.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

FG a Quick Surmise...

I like choices; I like to peruse a big array of 'stuff' and pick the item that best fits my fancy. So when we start talking about the government I get very frustrated as our choices are two and in the end of the day it’s really only one… BIG GOVERNMENT. For the purposes of the blog we’ll call it FG (the G stands for Government and the F… lets let you decide what that stands for).


Stealing from the hard working citizenry to pay for pet pork barrel projects was never the charter for the federal government. Every day I hear about the feds ‘saving’ us from the next catastrophe. Whether its terrorists, hurricanes, bailing out airlines in a nosedive and banks going broke or taking over banks (can you say socialism). The big FG is there to save the day.


How did we get this way you might ask… I have an idea that I will touch on, but it’s much deeper than that. I won’t go into conspiracy theories, although I do find some of them very plausible, I’m just going to stick to observations. As we’ve changed from an agrarian society to an industrial society and as we’ve opened our borders and let legal and illegal immigrants poor through, the population as a whole has shifted to the cities. As city people tend to be more reliant on the government we wind up with a people as a whole more willing to rely on the government for their needs. Since we’ve given the FG the major roll and taken it away from the states we no longer have a republic (for the people by the people) but a socialistic state (for the government by the government). The other thing I think happened is that the Church allowed the FG to take over social programs. Lastly I think we the people let the FG take over the schools. What was the original charter for the G before it became the FG? For starters we are a republic, not a democracy. Anything short or varied from that is against the constitution.


Some things I firmly believe regarding the FG and local government:

- The FG has three charters:

o Provide for the defense of the nation as a whole

o Mediate issues between states

o Mediate issues with foreign governments

- States maintain all other rights and duties to their citizenry.

- All money given the federal government should be given through the state governments and not directly by its people.

- It’s up to the states as to how to tax their people

- If we have to pay a national tax then it should either be a flat tax or a national sales tax either one will do away with loop holes and with the great evil called the IRS.

- Can you say term limits. For all hired officials. Politics was never meant to be a profession. I think six to ten years should be the max lifetime involvement.

- No retirement for politicians and pay based on median US income.



I could go on and will in the future, but let’s look at where we’ve sunk… Marx and Engels could not be more proud… why don’t we list the ten Planks of the Communist Manifesto bringing about bringing on the fall of capitalism into communism:

1. Abolition of property in land and application of all rents of land to public purposes.

2. A heavy progressive or graduated income tax.

3. Abolition of all right of inheritance.

4. Confiscation of the property of all emigrants and rebels.

5. Centralization of credit in the hands of the State, by means of a national bank with State capital and an exclusive monopoly.

6. Centralization of the means of communication and transport in the hands of the State.

7. Extension of factories and instruments of production owned by the State; the bringing into cultivation of waste-lands, and the improvement of the soil generally in accordance with a common plan.

8. Equal liability of all to labor. Establishment of industrial armies, especially for agriculture.

9. Combination of agriculture with manufacturing industries; gradual abolition of the distinction between town and country, by a more equable distribution of the population over the country.

10. Free education for all children in public schools.


Looks like we have all the Planks in place to squelch all our rights and do away with what our country was founded on. Sun Tzu couldn’t be more accurate when he wrote: To subdue the enemy without fighting is the supreme excellence. We’ve been subdued from within, most excellently I might add. Like the frog in the pot as long as the water comes to a slow boil… contentment sublime… I think the water is starting to bubble, time to put it on ice.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Very best of Friends...

A very good friend, yes the very best of friends, asked me to start this revelation of sorts. So here I go. Not sure where this will lead as writing is not my normal outlet. I prefer things much more physical or mental, but not textual. Not sure how often I can do this as I lead a very busy life, but will try to honor my hearts delight by adding prose along the way and even something more numinous depending on your point of view.

Ah perspective. It defines us and where we stand, but only in so much as to what our perspective allows us to see. Mine tends to be quite conservative, but politically I'm leaning further to the libertarian side these days. Just so sick of the glut that government has become and the morass of people that suckle at the bureaucratic teat, looking to the government for all their 'needs'. Overall I maintain a positive outlook as I wade through the negativity in this world, wrought mostly by people who want to blame all their woes on anyone else, anything else but self.

My intro would not be complete if I failed to mention my kids and my faith. Both have formed me into the person I am today. I love my kids without measure. Kids are such great teachers if we but listen and watch. They take complex situations and reduce them to their simplest form. I have the smartest most beautiful children, but some would say I'm biased. As for my faith, what is a man apart from his Maker. It's as much a part of me as my breath, my very life blood. So between faith, family and self my perspective is formed.

I'm starting this as requested by my friend, but I'm sure as time goes on the value to me will be laid bear. Always good to look back and see where you've come, just as long as you don't get stuck there.

Wishing everyone the Joy I've found in my faith, my family and my very best of friends...

Veritas vos liberabit